The date and day were unknown, of course, it was during College days. After the class, i went to the apartment where was nearby my College. As usual i was inactive and feel lonesome. As soon as it was raining cats and dogs. So, lying on the bed and had a deep thinking. Sweat pouring me soon. Listening the song:
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
Since being friend, it was not easy to spark out what i have feeling for him. Many year ago at winter late night, he rang me up, as usual, chit-chatting until the dawn - laughing, counting the stars, sharing each other's dreams, but at the same time here we are breaking each other's heart and acting like strangers. I still hold grudges against him for what he has done to me but today i wish to give him the best gift i have never given to anyone - to letting go. So i, ironically, will no longer hold any grudge against to him.
As time goes, still we are same. I thought that he is not either the worst or the best, still he is just ' He' who came to my life to teach me lessons about being valued what we have had. I appreciate him, make me realised the value of love, parents, family and true friends. What he taught me was hard to learn at that time but at the same time one of the most important for my upcoming future life.
The lonely winter night on the boulevard of road we strolling and every stars and moon shine for us, this what i missed tha most today. Somtimes i was living out of those memories . Again, i appreciate everyday, since he was helping me find the lights while i was in deep darkness. He was the only who always cheering me up whatever i've gone through.
It's almost been years, i'am asking myself many times - Why?, why can't i just get over him. What if I can't get over him. Even if i met him on crossing road with grey hairs and freckle skin with my grandchild holding on my hand I would take a very deep breath and remarking "He's the one who broke my heart, the one who i truly love, whom i cannot and will not get over it even in the after life". Even if we can re-incarnate I'd still choose him and let you break my heart trillion times.
I don’t care whom he was with or where he is i wish that to have happy and wealthy life. Yeah!! The memories we have been gone through ups and downs make me to be a stronger girl than yesterday, but to be honest i may jelous of every girl that make him smile. Till then I'll be here patiently waiting for you. Dear, My starry night.
What a very² nice story it is
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